nothing but the truth

@ Friday, December 4, 2009

im freaking bored and i dontknow what to do.

facebook is a shit, my account is sending off stupid links.

and if you click on it, mati la korang, pun kene spam jugak. stupid viruses!

whatever la.

so yeah dont click on the links yeah.

im currently talking on the phone with Love, but ended up getting scoldings from him due to downloading songs. ok dont ask about it. argh shit.

though it's small quarrel it's rather irritating you know.

Love wanted to meet but i cannot go out stuck home like stupid ass.

it's raining now, such nice weather for me to go to sleep and never wakeup.

but i feel like a pig if i do so.

so i decided to update this blog of mine.

i have no reasons nor purpose in updating just felt like doing so.

well, it's my blog anyway.

chatting with Favian talking about songs and food.

can be really entertaining.

my face is getting worse since Dance Xplosion.

bloody makeup sure doesnt like me.

been washing my face daily and regularly you know.

dye all small thingy on my face die!

dance is ok for now.

but dear Mamat, chill bro.

whats done is done.

stop arguing with you friends.

live life ok?

shall end here. will post if theres a need to suckers.

BYE!

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@ Thursday, December 3, 2009

oh damn boy, ive lost trust in you.
i aint no kid for you to fool around.
a mintue you're in, a minute you're out.
you think im a fool.
to be rude i shall say, my GRX wont die without you.
and you're a freaking coward cause you dont want to accept changes.
but to be nice, GET YOUR MIND STRAIGHT WILL YA?
dont waste everyone's time please and thank you.
so now you choose this, you choose to leave both. so be it ok.
stop changing your mind.
gosh, whatsup with you man.
but niwaes THANKS for dancing with us, and thanks for all the help.
thanks for being a part of us..

MAMAT MAMAT, lu kecho la dooh!
what telah happening to you ah?
susah dapat ar tengokk orang macam kau.
tolong la, grow up. though you're only 14 is it? be matured slightly will ya.

lu bikin orang pening kepale je.
whatever la, love dance kan.
gi pursue diam diam, takmu bikin orang pening.
lu banyak pe kecho ar bro.
WAKEUP dooh!

ive been stressed up these days.
and i disappoint Love.
he was looking forward for me to end Dance Xplosion hoping i would be free then so that i could spend more time with him.
but then, ive been more busier than ever and Mummy can be a shit at times for not letting me out.
he's also upset that i get myself stressed up so often due to dance.
and he doesnt like me being in this situation.
who wants to feel shitty all the time.
but what can i do. haish.
despite Love feeling upset with me, he still put his feelings aside and has always been there for me.
he's my number one SUPPORTER AND FAN.
he cheered me up everytime i felt like crying.
i thank him so much for that.

dance sekarang TOPSY TURVY.
i dont know what's happening.
and to all who hear stupid stories about GRX.
LU LEK ONE CORNER, DIAM SUDAH!
jangan kpo yer.
not mentioning people, WARNING je.
dont bully my mates, langkah mayat aku.
ah chey fierce.
sudah la!

im bored now. mummy's using the phone and Love is watching tv.
and i dont know what to do.
im currently chatting with Sharifah and Faizul. cause im bored.
hahas!

ok BYE!

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@ Wednesday, December 2, 2009

as the picture show, i met my Love today.
so i am a HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY girl today.
cause i get to meet my Love.
being a sweet girlfriend i am, i arrived at Love's place at 8am.
supposedly to accompany Love for his checkup, but he's very fickle-minded and asked me to stay home with Ibu and wait for him to come back.
so did what he told la kans.
so he came back . changed, got ready and cabbed o FarEast Shopping Centre, to accompany Ibu for her job interview.
so then headed MOS burger to have lunch. and chit chat.

Ibu left for Woodlands to meet Ayah. so Love and I walked around Orchard like nobody's business.
then ended up at SCAPE and took bus 65 home.
ooh, throughout this post pictures are randomly taken in the cab and while at FarEast shopping centre.
once home, watched TV for awhile and ended up i fell asleep.
with Love's warmth, and the bed, im sure will fall asleep.
i had a really nice nap.
woke up, a little cranky and realise so many people was home. Indah and Myra, and the two guys whom names im unsure of. hahas.
and of course Adik and Wan.

after a few hours of slacking. it was time for me to go off la kans.
so i went off.
Love couldnt send me to the MRT so he only managed to send me to the bus stop.
so trained to Tamp.
met Favian for dinner
and dance talking happen.

haish, so kecho siaa dance thingy.
well MAMAT, again i shall say its up to you.
now since that's what you've decided, i hope you wont change your mind anymore.
and oh, why are you afraid of me hating you.
comeon, i wont ok.
that will be stupid.
oh please, do not be afraid of me.
im still your friend not your superior.
im still here for you if you wanna talk and share things.
again i shall say, no hiding of feelings. pape sharing ok dokie!
please do not play a fool anymore.
cause i dont have the time to bullshit and what not.
so once you've made a decision stick to it ok.
dont just say it for the sake of saying it. prove that you mean what you say.
dance all the way okie dokie

my day was spent wisely today.
i love DANCE.
i love DANCEMATES.
i love my BOYFRIEND.
oh and i miss HIM.
wonder when's the next day i can meet him.
he's upset that i cant meet him frequently anymore since im getting more busy with dance.
haish. im sorry ok.
always know i love you, and i SETIE with you okie dokie.
trust me tawukk.
sayang LOVE ok ni tawukk.

ok la, bye bye!

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@ Tuesday, December 1, 2009

dance meeting yesterday. and it was ok.

LFC and GRX decided to merge.

and hence we will be changing our crewname.

i dontknow what's to become of the crew in future.

but i hope all things will turn out fine.

im happy that all they wanna do is DANCE and dancing with whichever crew doesnt matter.

that's what i call PASSION.

i dont know whether this will be a right decision. cause yeah, we're all very different in personalities.

im hoping for the best.

i dont know whether i still wanna dance.

i dont know if i still have the mood to.

we're having a performance on the 7th december and 31st december for countdown.

i guess my plans for countdown shall be cancelled.

im thankful that now we got tons of performance.

finally we're going somewhere.

but to do things without Pina nowadays seems tough. but like she said, we have to be INDEPENDENT.

im glad we're doing things ourselves these days without asking Pina much.

but still, Pina is our elder. we respect her, and she's the best.

and to DINIE DAYANA.

i know she'll read this somehow.

you're a part of GRX. everyone know that.

but like you said, DANCE XPLOSION will be your last time dancing.

so i presume that you wont want to dance anymore.

that's the reason why we didnt include you in our meeting.

but nevertheless, if you still wanna dance with us January onwards.

why not. the more the merrier.

so just a call and a text shall do.

and to the lovely crewmates.

let's go far ok.

not by name, but by talent.

we can do it.

and to MAMAT, thanks for agreeing to merge and i know it's hard for you.

thanks jyeahh.

we'll make it big soon.

and Love, i cant wait to meet you tomorrow.

i love you.

and oh, im on the phone with him.

and he's nagging about me blogging.

so like MAKCIK you know.

but whatever and whoever he wants to be, i love him.

tomorrow is his 2nd checkup.

and sooner or later he get his letter for NS. and there goes him.

im so gonna miss him.

i'll die without him. hahas. like real!

after checkup we're off to orchard to accompany his Ibu for job interview.

and then we slacked.

shall make good use of the time with him.

oh Love, i sayang you la deh!

ok BYE!

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@ Monday, November 30, 2009

"im lucky that i get to meet,know and fall in love with you. cause you're everything to me" - LOVE

im all smiles now, cause Love always say something right.

he never fails to make me oh so in love with him.

i know sometimes it sucks and sometimes it's irritating to be all so MUSHY about boyfriend and what not.

but hey, life now revolves with Love around.

and i am thankful for that.

he occupied most of my time and life now. and i oh so loving it.

anyhoos, out in the morning to do some errands.

then out to Simei to have GRX meeting. a short and simple one.

then off home cause i need to rush to fetch my brother.

then im home.

had dinner, then talked on the phone all the way with Love and am still talking.

he's finally dying his hair back to brown colour and scrapped the tak senonoh blue colour.

hahas.

he's having his second checkup for NS this wednesday.

and being a very sweet sweet girlfriend, i have decided to accompany him at 8.45am at CMPB which is at his house area Telok Blangah.

boleh mati wor! takpe, SAYANG pe pasall. hahahas.

i have nothing to blog actually, just wanna kill time.

hearing Love laughing cause he's watching Macam2 Aznil is very cute.

oh wells.

bye now. muah muas!

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@ Sunday, November 29, 2009

oh dear, im a HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY girl today.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. hahas.
yes, i met my Love today.
like finally. i missed him alot and finally i get to cuddle him after a whole week.
my Love was supposed to fetch me under my voideck today, but due to his dearest Ibu who woke up late and got ready late.
i told Love to meet me at WhiteSands instead.
accompanied them eat Macdonalds and walked at WhiteSands.

and then board bus 12 and straight to Simei.
met GRX at Community Centre, danced a while and waited for Yani cause she was late.
then off to Residents Corner at blk 150.
went all crazy in the room. we had the room all by ourselves.
oh i SUKEE!
then all and out.
Love was the sweetest thing. i dont know why, he always smiled at me today and made me smile. hahas. so CUTEE.
ok whatever.
then GRX performed, and i smiled throughout. WELL DONE my lovelies.
so im awaiting for pictures from them. will post them once i get it okk.

then watched Ibu sing at the karaoke lounge. POWER or whatt.
then GRX left.
me and Love waited for Ibu.
then cabbed home.
and now im home, calling Love soon.
currently on the phone with Eqa.

Dear Love,
thank you for the awesome-st day today.
thank you for willing to come down Pasir Ris to meet me and accompany me all the way to Simei to watch GRX danced.
thanks for the cab ride.
thanks for the mentos.
thanks for allowing me to sms Eqa using your phone.
thanks for your support.
thanks for your love.
thanks for your hugs.
thanks for your kiss.
thanks for being there.
thank you dear. thank you so much.

i love my boyfriend today, tomorrow and insyallah FOREVER.
i had a joyful and happy day today, thank ALLAH.

bye!

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maybe ive just lost it.
maybe i should just throw this dream away.
maybe i shouldnt have started it.
ive got through a whole lot for this.
i fight so much for it.
but why am i fighting alone.
why am i falling by myself and picking myself up alone.
why are there too much obstacles blocking my way.
is it time to say goodbye to DANCE.
why did it make me suffer so much.
disappointed i was. very am. with myself.
am i forever gonna be stuck with this life.
Love kept telling me to fight. but it's not as easy as it sounds.
im tired now, very am.
maybe it's over. maybe not.
i dont know.
oh dear heart, please tell me what is right, what should i do.

nevertheless, DANCING FEET I WILL ALWAYS HAVE.

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